Monday, June 24, 2013
Feeling the love
First off ... Tiki has a new mom. More on that in a later post ...
I want to touch a little bit on how amazing my "kids" are. When my husband I made the decision to move to California, I'm not going to lie. I was feeling a little bit "unloved". A huge fight with a great friend, a big fight with my family, good clients leaving my lesson program ... I was feeling a little bit like, "What have I got to lose"? Well, as time has progressed and we've begun this process, I am being reminded that I AM loved. A lot. And it makes me so happy and I feel so blessed to have these amazing people in my life.
Words cannot even express the emotion I'm feeling as I read all the letters and cards that my girls and even my kid's parents are giving me. I'm realizing I have COMPLETELY underestimated the impact I've had on people's lives. I've been doing what I do for 16 years. Whoa! Can't even believe that! To bring things full circle, I've had a young woman shadowing me for last month that I actually TAUGHT back then, when I was 18. I've always held myself to a high standard, and tried to live my life by example; I've always tried to be an example to the people I've taught. Turns out ... I've made an impact.
I am so humbled to read the anguish my leaving has brought on, to hear how much my kids (AND my adults!) will miss their weekly lessons with me. I KNOW I have a gift ... and I WILL use that gift again. I have learned SO much from my wonderful boss; she has really helped to shape and mold my teaching style, and has gotten me to see things in a much more professional way. She has been a mentor for me in my "actual" life, as well as for my professional life.
I think the reason I'm good at what I do is because I always put a piece of my heart into each and every soul I teach. Sometimes those people end up sucking the life out of me. More often than not, I feel an infusion of love and appreciation each time I teach them. It's so nice to read how much that heart I give is appreciated. God has put me EXACTLY where I've needed to be all this time, and now He wants me to move on and focus on my own life a little more. I've helped young girls grow into amazing women, and I've helped my fantastic teenagers to become horseman and really love themselves and their riding.
I wish I could articulate to each and every person that has sent me a sweet and touching letter how much you all mean to me. It honestly breaks my heart a little bit to feel the pain my leaving has caused, but I KNOW I've given all of you the foundation you need to become amazing people, and amazing horsemen. My heart is definitely fractured as a result of walking away from this life, but I know my path has taken a turn, and I have to follow it! I will remember all of you fondly, and I MEAN it when I say CALL ME, TEXT ME, E MAIL ME, I'm here for you:) We live in an amazingly connected world these days, and I plan to take advantage of it! I love you guys. Thank you for the memories. Thank you for the life lessons. Thank you for shaping ME into the woman I am today. I have learned as much from you all as you have from me. I am forever grateful to have had the opportunity to teach your children how to love horses, and how to love themselves. Godbless!!!!!